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PHYSICAL P]FEC;N IS LESS IMPORTANT ?AN
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NEWS 0 MY *OS5 C>E] & MIS.N1 ,I LEFT !
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PROA*$1 ,I SAW A MAN H1D+ 96! SAME SPACE
F ! OPPOSITE DIREC;N4 ,I MOV$ 6MY LEFT
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VIEW \R LIVES "? 4TORT$ L5SES4 ,\R EMO-
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N[ ! ABIL;Y 6D EI HAS 2COME AN 9VALUA#
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C;Y IS RUNN+ ! GAUNTLET4 ,I M/ WAT* MY
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LY 9 ! /REET4 ,YET ,I MAY 2 ! ONLY LEG,Y
BL JAYWALK] 9 ! C;Y4 ,MY RAD> IS TE*NI-
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ONGO+ B>GA9 ) MYF4 ,6KEEP MY COOL IS TO
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TI;E ,I N"E POSSESS$ 2F4 ,! ABIL;Y 6LAU<
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NO SECRET4 ,I H TALK$ & WRITT5 AB MY
BRU%ES ) ILL;S 5 T ,I M/ =FEIT ANY
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RIDE ! SUBWAY %UTTLE F ,GR& ,C5TRAL TO
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